STUDIO ENSEMBLE!!!!!

So today was a great day. I am having a great time in that class. I have a lot of things to work on as all of us do, but I love this teacher. I am going to talk to her about being one of my personal teachers. She is really that good, and she is so knowledgeable and giving I love it. We had our recital today and it went okay. I liked, but not loved my performance. Things to improve on and that is life. :-)

Van came to bother me today. He was looking aiight...I know what you guys are thinking, but he is such a nothing in my eyes now. :-)

Anyway he calls me up asking me to feed him. I did. he was hitting me too much. He was getting annoyed because I make fun of him now. He says one thing and I immediately take it spiritual...it is what he wants. Anytime something happens I tell him he is letting the Devil in...I just do what his family does. He doesn't like it...LOL

It is just something I have to do...he is so simple. The man is concerned about his destiny, but instead of deciding for himself he lets others do it for him. His family is more than happy to tell him what is right and what is wrong. They scare him pretty good with fears of going to hell, and using guilt to make him do what they want.

HE IS SO ANNOYING!!!! Especially when he curses and then says forgive me Jesus...I just want to tell him that JESUS DON'T CARE ABOUT THAT...HE'S CONCERNED THAT YOU ARE LETTING OTHERS DICTATE HOW TO LIVE YOUR LIFE!!!! I know what you guys are thinking. I swear I am not in love with him, and I could care less about him. He is really annoying!!! He is!!!!

He would rather have mommy and daddy and grandma tell him where, when, how, why, and who to be and do. He is giving up his life...and instead of deciding where and what to do he is letting others decide and throw in Jesus said and the Devil this and he bends to their will. I AM SO DONE WITH HIS ASS!!!!!!

I AM!!!! I SWEAR I AM!!!!! Let him suffer and be around people that he got to put on an act for. Same people he wants to get away from...

He said something real ignorant and I said please form an individual opinion and stop being a parrot. Guys I AM SO OVER HIM!!!! I PROMISE YOU!!!! I can see all your faces now. One of my professors makes fun of him, but when I do it I get hit. Everyone looks and is like dude stop being so weak...be yourself and do you.

Here is the real thing that pisses me off. Apparently he is going to cancel his church rehearsal to go and perform in the BA Voice recital. He is quick to say he is going to cancel and has no problem, but he is quick to dismiss my SENIOR RECITAL!!!! HE AIN'T SHIT!!!! He don't even care that I am upset...all he cares about is getting money and food from me. Funny thing is that he tells me to really sing the national anthem so I can impress his family...I AIN"T DOING THAT!!!

 I AIN'T TRYING TO IMPRESS NO ONE THAT WOULD PRAY AGAINST THEIR OWN FAMILY AND CALL THAT BEING HOLY!!!! I AM SO MAD WITH VAN!!!!! If we were together I'd be thinking about breaking up with him at this point...I almost feel that he should be with his family trapped and going nowhere. He wants to give them control of his life and call that his destiny.

I AM OVER HIM AND I HAVE NO FEELINGS TOWARD HIM!!!!

J-Bo