Last night was disappointing...thinking of him.

Was suppose to go out last night, but due to what I will call a misunderstanding I end up going home without hanging out and getting the interaction that I wanted and needed.

On the whole ride home thank God I had my iPod cause I was preoccupied on the music.

It wasn't until I got home, that I started to think of Van. I mean I was going through some serious withdrawal, and the thing is that besides the sex, I missed my friend.

Van has become such an integral part of my life, and it is hard not having him here.

I just miss talking with him, sharing ideas, laughing, arguing, and just being there. Connecting and learning about each other. And also I do miss the sex...I mean that ass was too sweet and that dick!!!!! :-)

Now I'm all in that place. Lemme get up and shower and head to school. Gotta hang out, tutor, and then back to school for some event...basically free food and music. :-)

So these next two days are days in schools and just getting stuff done.

I need to get these emotions out and the best way to do this was singing and writing. I just miss him so much. Gotta do something...and do something big.

I can imagine him awake already cause now he is an early riser...something I put in him cause that was so me, and he was the person to wake up at noon. Smh...

J-Bo