Tuesday, March 19, 2013

The Nerve of Some People

So I think I have lost another person who I am dating. Well I should say was dating. Here is the thing she was mad cool and mad down to earth.

I know that you guys are probably rolling your eyes at me for it being a woman, but she was like super model porn star hot. So don't judge me!!!! :-)

So this chick and I were talking about our exes. She asked me so I told her and she told me about her ex. Funny thing is that her ex is a woman and mine is a man. Kinda ironic. It is true...the really hot ones are gay. :-D

So here is the problem...she was bashing her ex. I didn't like that, but it was whatever. Then she started digging for dirt on Van. She wanted to see pics of him and know about him. I of course told her I have no pics and he is dead so it doesn't matter.

She started to get on me and say all sorts of things like men like me. -_-

I was 2 seconds from exploding.

I mean the only bad thing I can say about Van is that he is a runner. That and he is super religious and he has been on record as telling me that religion means more than spirituality. That is the only thing that I don't like, but to each his own.

I told her that when he talks to other guys he will go through the back and forth, and he will have to deal with his feelings for his whole life since he finds them wrong. Its the same as a black man not wanting to be black, and trying to hide and lie about it. God don't make no mistakes and he will have his way sooner or later. :-)

That wasn't enough for her. She wanted me to hate him. I told her I don't hate him. I was where he used to be. I was always fighting, and lying, and hiding, and working so hard to be right. I cannot believe how long it took me to realize that I was right. Thank God for favor. ;-)

So I of course had to lay it down and tell her what was what. I said I would never hate him. In fact I think about him all the time. That I love him and will always love him even though he isn't part of my life. She didn't understand. So I had to spend 30 minutes helping her through all her angst and hate. She had so much childhood drama...that was not fun working through.

Funny how I can help everyone except those that mean the most to me...that and me not being help to others to help me. God has to work on that.

So I have a few other people who have been talking to me for dates and to hang out. One guy wants to hang out this weekend, and go to the movies. I said why not...it's been awhile since I've been. Another girl wants to hang out before church on Sunday. I said that leaves us for a short coffee date, but that could work.

So I am out there dating and having fun. Actually I am out there to get over the one that ran away.

The guy I should be seeing this weekend who all my friends make fun of me about is a little concerned. They make fun of me cause they say he looks like a spanish version of Van. I don't see it, but they do. I swear they are trying to fuck with me. The only similarities are they both sing, both ministers of music, both gay, both big families, both from divorced households, but this guys has a level of spiritual and emotional maturity that Van does have, but it was never consistent...at least from what I saw.

So my mom leaves on Saturday and I got the place all to myself. I cannot wait...maybe have the guys over, but I think I am going to be alone for a few days. Kinda wanna be in a quiet, reflective, meditative place. Me and God time for at least the first day or so.

I know for a fact that the guy who Van probably thinks he has fallen in love with (smh) he has went as far as showing him my pictures. I am not that mad...just kinda ironic he is worried about me spreading around who he is, and he is doing that.

He has outed me numerous times...and I must say each time was funny and annoying at the same time. Lol...good memories.

I have a few songs that I am writing that has been inspired by the past few months and some past events. Even some current ones. I cannot wait to get them down and get back to performing. I got some BFA fam that are waiting and willing to come out and support and step up. God thank you for blessing me everywhere I go.

J-Bo

P.S. I gotta raise more money for these real estate and business acquisition deals. They are coming fast and hard, but the money is coming in. A lot actually. God keep my feet steady and eyes and ears on you.

P.P.S. Someone wants me to record a collection of Arias, classical songs, and popular tunes. Also some broadway tunes. Talk about gotta get busy.

P.P.P.S. One of the guys I am talking to is going to med school. Actually some in between school at Ohio where you go for a year and if you do good enough then you can go to med school. He is telling me all about it. I'd love to visit...I have family out there, and I need to do more traveling.

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