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All I have to say is that I am so proud of my president, but I need to take a nap...long day.

I'll give you guys an update later on how my day went.

J-Bo

So my night has been ruined...can't wait for tomorrow

Goodnight you guys...I need to vent a little.

First my parents go to the movies, and when they come back they were in a nice mood...until my father sees a letter from the IRS on the table from me. Actually it started before that.

My father has a habit of asking questions and then bitching and moaning about your answers. I swear it makes me sick, and it forces me to answer his questions with a yes or no as much as possible, because I know it pisses him off.

So the reason why I got an IRS letter is that I was "asked" by my parents to put down that I could be claimed on their taxes...I didn't because I can't but they bitched and moaned so I changed it.

Now I got a letter from the IRS telling me that I have to fix some discrepancies and I might have to pay more than $1,000. What the hell?!?!?!?! All because they twisted my arm I am being forced to pay for something I didn't want to do.

*&#*#T# #&@&*##*&^ #@^#^#@*&^#@@!###^*#&@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So not only did my parents mostly, my father piss me off to end with his Bitching and Nagging, but now I have to deal with this IRS drama. WTF?!?!?!?! One step forward and something is trying to knock me 2 steps back.

The other thing that is pissing me off royally is that I there are people out there not saying that they have HIV and other STIs and are infecting people. More recently there was this man in his 30s Keith “Keyoko” Sumlin was arrested for having sex with a 15 year old bareback and giving him HIV.

This sadly is not unusual. I guess it is also why the black community has the highest rates of HIV and AIDS than all other races. Smh.

There is also the story of Larry Dunn Jr. a straight man killing his girl Cicely Bolden a single mother of two. Wanna know why if you don't already know...she gave him HIV and then tried to break up with him. He killed her in retaliation.

She waited till after sex to tell the man that she was HIV positive. He went nuts and sorry to say I understand him.

Why have sex know you are sick and not tell people. It is irresponsible, disgusting, and disgraceful.

My dick is going near no one another person. I am going to just assume that everyone and anyone is infected that way I won't have to worry about anything. I hope I find someone worthy of my love and heart again, but until then I am not letting no one near me sexually.

This makes me miss Van. We both were faithful. He would like to bring up those other girls and guy, but that happened when we broke up...his fault so I don't count those. And I used protection like you would not believe. LOL...I didn't do anything I couldn't wear a condom for...I was that serious.

Well thanks for the rant...I have a busy day of working on music tomorrow in the practice room and ear training and just piano skills. So much to do...I also need to get the hell outta this house, and find out what I am going to do about this IRS business.

Wish me luck guys...

J-Bo

P.S. Also talked to Van today via FB...didn't talk about anything serious, but it was nice. He felt very distant, but I am not going to read anything into it. He obviously still feels I am public enemy number 1. He won't question it, fight it, or anything...he is just going to obey and follow. I miss the leader I knew...i miss my friend.

P.P.S. I saw on FB Van is going to be getting a voice lesson in school tomorrow, and I made plans to be in school since Monday. So to make sure I don't bump into him I am going to avoid the rooms where he could be and just go to the practice rooms and stay outta the way. I know he doesn't want to see me, and I don't want to be seen by someone who obviously feels annoyed by the sight of me. Do you believe me...am I convincing?? :-)

Give the people what they want...

So I have been getting text and phone calls asking me to come to school tomorrow. Got some music to work on, and have some songs to sing. Going to see about sitting my voice teacher's private lesson with a great mezzo.

Not sure when I will get there, but I know I will be spending most of the time in the practice room, working on some songs. Every time I am in the practice rooms it feels nostalgic. All the times I would spend with Van. All my friends. Spending time working on pieces getting ready for performances. :-)

Such great times upstairs...from all sides.

So tomorrow I will be in the practice rooms having the time of my life. I cannot wait...singing songs and the harmonies. Funny how that is one thing that Van always was pushing and it stuck. LMAO!!!! I actually love singing harmonies, and I am getting better and better.

Funny how things are going...smh.

So now back to work, and my nephew is coming over to hang out. I assume he wants money, but I don't want to jump to conclusions.

J-Bo

Awesome day today...AWESOME!!!!!!

I have to say that I am having the time of my life. Despite my father just in my ear bothering the hell outta me, and my mother just being who she is I came to school.

First I had a great time seeing one of my voice teachers. We shall call him the Master, because I consider him to be a master. I sat in one of his voice classes, and I was able to get a voice lesson...about close to an hour.

It was just so much fun...

Of course I was doing things kinda wrong. He said that my voice sounds awesome and beautiful and has more presence than most. (I love compliments btw...like a lot.) But my voice can be more free, more resonant, and just easier to use.

I was pushing too much air, and had some tensions, but nothing a few lessons won't fix, and now I know what to work on. Gotta get these oratorios and arias and spirituals down. I was told to not worry about the oratorio Elijah for now, but I will work on it...can't hurt and Lent will be here sooner than I know.

So much to do and get ready for and all I want to do is rest and sleep. Cannot allow that to happen...

On a side note I am looking forward to Glee and Shark Tank starting a new season. It actually shows both sides of me really well. The musical/artist side of me, and then the business/finance side of me. I LOVE THESE SHOWS!!!!!!! :-)

Last night I had a phone call from my kids in San Fran...they pissed me so off. I don't like domestic violence...at all. I mean a lil fighting is to be expected, but it should never get physical. No one should put hands on the next...it shouldn't happen.

Anyway I am waiting for one of my friends to get out of class, and I am looking for something to do. Maybe it is time to go to the library and catch some zzzzs before she comes get me. Alright guys...I will give you guys an update later on other areas.

J-Bo

An Interesting 48 Hours...and It Keeps Getting Better

So these past 48 hours have been a trip. Minus my mother being in serious pain and all things have been pretty good. I have to head over to her soon to make sure that everything is okay, and my father isn't driving her bat shit crazy. :-)

But first it starts on Thursday when I had a great time with some friends, and we just sang songs. We sang love songs, jazz, gospel, and more. I was able to get out so much drama and so much pain that was in me.

Then on Friday I went to church and heard a great message. Can't remember what it was about...I have really bad short term memory. Blessing and a curse.

Then I went out to a nice lounge type place with Aaron, Steve, and even Dishone. It was a gay spot, and what I am so happy about is that Dishone actually had fun. He was dancing with his man, and the rest of us. He was like prime meat in that place so he didn't stray to far with fears of being molested. :-D

I was the only one not really dancing b/c the spot we went to played mostly rap/hip-hop and spanish music. Now I can get down, but I wanted to hear some reggae, dancehall, and soca. Music of my land, but it was w/e.

Before we got there Dishone was like I am only going to make Aaron happy and b/c he promised. He was of course getting all bad and anxious about it...he even brought up how he felt convicted about being with Aaron earlier on, and being convicted is a sign of God in your life.

I don't believe that totally. I mean for Dishone going out and dancing was always seen as a bad thing, but for me it literally isn't anything to even talk about the next day. I told him that your convictions are your convictions, and mine are mine. That as we grow and change they also change.

He had convictions about his sexuality, but as he grew as a man and Christian those feelings have changed. I also had to tell D that he cannot put his rules onto Aaron. I mean Aaron likes to go out every once and a while, and what is not Aaron's conviction isn't his conviction and vice versa.

The one thing I did with Van was to never put my rules on him, and I had to force him to do the same...not an easy thing to do btw. We always feel what we know and what we experience is best...at least the neurotics do.

Now today I went and met up with 5 real estate investors, and we are all talking game plans and strategies. Things are looking up.

To top it all off Van is talking to me now. Nothing serious...just about family stuff, and church stuff. I can almost here his voice, and see his eyes roll, and see him shake his head. LOL...

I do miss him, but this is his doing, and he can change and fix it when he wants. I just really miss the punches and kicks, and him being there. Oh well...time to get out of here soon and do more work.

Ttyl.

J-Bo

P.S. I cannot wait to see how far I go before the year is over, and I am tired of waiting for the church to open up membership. I wanna be a member already. Not sure why... :-P

Obama for 2012

All I am going to say is to read and listen to what Obama said.

At a later date I will put up all 3 key speeches given at DNC...

A new day is here, and we are moving forward. My God is REAL!!!!

Have a great night ppl.

J-Bo

Damn love songs. :-)

So I was driving from seeing my mother in the hospital and she is doing ok. She should be out soon God willing...we will have to wait and see.

So I was driving and listening to all these love songs...cause that is what is on the radio. Also in the hospital I saw this gay couple that reminds me of Van and I. This guy was going to visit his boyfriend during his shift before he went home.

They met with a kiss, and we spoke for awhile. It was nice...makes me feel hopeful and sad at the same time.

One of my cousins wanted to see what Van looked like so I showed her his fb page. She was not impressed and was like he doesn't look like anyone would deal with him after the first headache.

I laughed at her...she can be hard, but she is known for giving the facts as they are seen, and being hard and upfront about it. It is not a game with her...she is one of those honest to a fault ppl.

But here is the thing yes Van had some issues. He wasn't all that cute, he wasn't perfect, he had some stuff going on that a lot of ppl would look and turn away from, but there is something about that man. There really is.

I cannot explain what it is...yes a lot of ppl would not want him, but he is so special and so valuable. It is something that you understand when you are in it.

I know I am not the most good looking and I have my issues. Funny cause I look at my faults in a real way, but I get a lot of play from men and women and I cannot understand. My father said there is something about me that draws people to me, and rallys them.

He is always talking like I am going to be some major force. Gotta love him, but I don't see it. Even Van and Dishone called me a preacher...don't see that one for shit. :-D

He fb messaged me today to tell me that he was praying for my mother and me, because she was going into surgery. I wanted to ask him lunch today to see him, and just laugh with him...but he is still pulling away from me.

Shame when someone who calls you their best friend, lover, and husband pulls away. What is also funny is that today in the hospital some girl tried to talk to me, and w/o thinking I said I am in a committed happy relationship and walked off...

Of course that happened after I saw the happy couple that reminded me of Van and I. God work it out...in the meantime I have things to do.

Time to watch some tv, probably make some phone calls and then hit the bed. I am watching the DNC again, but this one features Bill Clinton.

I swear I am going to make this world a better place for the outcast...

J-Bo