So I have been overcoming my fears and doing what is scaring me the most which is going head in on these business deals.
A few people have already flat turned me down, but I feel I am making some serious gains.
I even have a potential $25k copywriting project that I am working on. Due at the end of July, and I can either do 1,2,3,or,4 and of course I am going to go for all four and hopefully they choose me and I can get $100k.
We shall see.
I am trying hard to stay busy and keep progressing...part of it is because I want to be successful, and the other part is that I really don't want to think about Van. I mean I do, but I am working hard at not calling him.
It does make me wish we had another year or 2 in school so there was a way to see him on the regular, but I won't get into that.
Now I focus on money and my career, and I am going to pray on the relationship end of things. I am so jealous of Dishone and Aaron. I am happy for them, but still jealous...I mean Van and I really had a healthier and better relationship than they did.
If it wasn't for him being so scared and the religious part I wouldn't be worried about this. Oh well...lemme not focus on that.
I have to keep my feelings secret and be strong for the kids. I wonder if he has found someone to replace me already??
Lemme get to work...going to be an early night.
J-Bo
No one can replace you, and no one will be like you. He knows what he has in you...he is just scared and needs to work it out.
ReplyDeleteBusiness isn't easy. I have started 10 and it gets easier as time goes by. But that first million was the hardest and the first $10 million was the hardest.
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