Some Material I Am Learning...Doing Big Things!!!

J-Bo

P.S. Gotta get my technique back to where it was...gotta keep up with the lessons. I want my voice to stay awesome!!!! Also according to my teachers because I have a huge voice it is going to take more work to keep it in control and focused...the price for greatness.

P.P.S. Going for the Bass Role in Mozart's "La Clemenza di Tito"...the bass only has one aria, and I think you hardly see him. I think it would be a nice easy beginning role. I don't wanna do something where the Bass is the most prevalent right now...like the Ring Cycle...that will come later.

P.P.P.S Gotta get the music together for Verdi's "Ernani"...I'm joining the chorus late and I need a head start on practicing and catching up.

5 Steps to Dispel A Destructive Belief

I want to give you guys some help in getting rid of old beliefs that you may have from childhood that no longer serve you.

There are many of us who are walking around with conditioning that both serve and don't serve us. I have been dealing with a fair amount of men and women who are dealing with limiting beliefs that aren't serving them.

I could give examples but why. Also most of the people I help come from a very religious, abusive past. God is obviously telling me something.

Here it is. I'll go deeper into them at a later time. I gotta write these sales letters.

First: RECOGNIZE that it is a neural pattern that has nothing to do with the present moment. 

Second: understand that your brain boils down information into "sound bites" that over-generalizes and oversimplifies the topic or issue.
Third: Identify your deepest most treasured CORE VALUES and then see if they support your old beliefs.

Fourth: RELEASE your old belief by observing it without judgment. It's just a memory tied to old images, feelings, and thoughts.

Fifth: REFRAME it. Create a new belief based on your core value. Then RETRAIN your brain by repeating your core value and new belief like a mantra.

Do this for about 10 minutes a day, and in less than eight weeks, brain researchers Newberg and Waldman's brain scan studies show that your brain will actually change.

J-Bo

Weirdest Dream EVER!!!

I swear I don't know where this dream came from...I am not even sure what it means.

Bottom-line is that I was someone very successful and doing very very well for myself. I mean things were going great. I don't think I was married, but I was dating and having fun.

I had my times with all the most desirable men and women in the world. I mean I was on top of the game...I was looking for love, but haven't found it quite yet.

But somewhere in my dream Van showed up.

And he was acting like he normally does...that everything was always going to be fine. That it is just God's timing that we were waiting on. I never liked that he would say stuff like that...cause it kinda took it outta my control. Nothing is ever really in our control, but still...what can I say?

The point is that in the dream I was ready to yell at him, and kill him. I am not mad him, but I wanted to make him feel like crap. I wanted to make him understand that what he did was shitty, and kind of making him feel like he was a bad person, and he made a mistake.

What can I say?? It's stupid and petty, but I was going to do it.

I was ice cold and harsh and spitting venom.

But what happened next even I couldn't see happen.

He just ignored all of that, and walked right up to me, through my wall and I turned to walk away. He touched my back and his touch was like fire...like it lit me up. I felt something so powerful I cannot describe it.

The next thing I know is that he turns me around and kisses me.

I just wake up.

My back actually felt hot, and my lips were cool to the touch. It was so weird. Why did I have that dream with all the bad things going on in the world. With all the drama, and all the mess you would think that the world is going through my heart and thoughts would be to help those ppl.

But it was weird...it was obviously during a time when things were going very good for me. I don't know what I am talking about anymore. Never been very good at interpreting dreams.

I just know that with everything going we need more love, understanding, joy, and God. God I know my purpose is to show the world your grace and mercy. To help people not only develop a personal deep relationship with you, but to also help each person find the uniqueness in them. To help them develop themselves into all they can be...whatever that means to them.

With the dream and with all these things going on in the world I feel the need to call and see Van. To let him know how I feel. To be there for him. Now I am rambling...cause it doesn't matter how I see things or want.

He's probably seeing the things going on in the world, and believing it means staying more closely to his path and not changing and just keeping his head down and move forward. I do look forward to him being a doctor...just hearing the news. Even though he is more happier with public health...just being out there and doing something innovative.

I gotta stop talking about him now. :-)

I have to remember. To him I am the enemy...I am the bad guy. I am evil, and I am his ticket straight to hell. As long as I am viewed in that light there is nothing more than need be said. I keep him in my prayers and I am now part of the medical community and scientific community.

I have been really interested in advancing and broadening what we do. I mean we tend to be biased in the West...we think we have all the answers when we spend more and tend to fail more in these fields. Things have to change.

Anyway lemme go.

J-Bo

P.S. I know that we all dream every night and we remember few...why did I remember that one?

EXHAUSTED!!! :-)

So these past few days have been hell on my body. I gotta take better care of it...God's temple ain't no joke.

So musically things are going great...getting back to that great technique...headshots coming in, auditions lined up, and business is looking better than ever.

I know that the way to my future lies in me singing there...whether it is musical or not. I already know I got something big coming.

My next challenge is to raise these investment funds. Besides that I have been asked to do 3 albums. I don't know what the hell to do. I am asked to do a musical theatre album. They said that it will be songs covered by men...not sure how many are done by low voices that are current, but I already have Ol' Man River and there was a caribbean musical that I did in high school. Can't remember it, but I will find it.

Then I have an album of my own originals...meaning that I need to get into writing them. I only have 3 done that I really really like.

The last one that I need to do is an album of Arias and my recital music. I was asked to do them so I believe I am going to get my studio time for free...maybe gotta do some bartering.

On other news I have picked up many people who want me to help them learn how to sing and vocal coaching. :-D

There is one guy who I used to work with at my school when I did Work Study in the Athletics Department. He always gave me a gay vibe...I got him to sing for me today and he has a nice voice. He sings really nice...not all that full but he has the ability to grow a lot.

He is also West Indian (he's Haitian), and we get along really good. Not sure what his deal is, but he gives me the same gay vibe as Van did. Only difference is that I think his issue is the whole West Indian training part...but that is way easier than a religious one...though a friend called him a religious zealot.

I don't think that is a fair assessment.

So that is where I am for right now. Not that I am going to do anything with him. I still keep in my mind that everyone is infected until proven otherwise. Not everyone is like me...not everyone is going to be honest and gets tested and takes their health and sexual health in high regard...sad but true.

So since that is the norm I have to be exceptional.

Is it bad that I just want to sleep and wake up and have everything done for me already. But that is not the way life works.

Love my life...things are really getting to be bigger than me so I have to rely on God. This is so much more than me.

The one thing I am scared about is losing myself as things go on...I wanna obviously grow and change, but I know that power, prestige, and status does things to some people...I gotta lean on God even more.

More updates as time goes on.

Tomorrow is a day that I stay home and get things done that I don't have to leave for.

Time for bed...

J-Bo

Someone Stole From Me

So someone, somehow, someway stole my social security number and filled taxes in my name. Which makes no sense cause I don't have earned income for this tax period.

I am thinking of sicking my law firm on them and whoever did should spend the max time in jail. As a matter of fact that is what I am going to do...whether it is family or not...THEY HAVE TO PAY!!!!

On other news yesterday did turn out to be really fun. I taught a voice lesson, had a voice lesson, sat in a voice lesson, and sat in a rehearsal for one of the many recitals that I will be attending this year. So far the count is 4 before June.

I'm not complaining...I want to be there to show love and support and warmth.

On other news is that I got asked to join the chorus for Verdi's Ernani. It is for a small opera company, but they do usually promote in house so there is a chance for a lead role later on.

I am lining up auditions and competitions for the following week, and I still have to keep up with my other businesses. Just got a call this morning to get into the studio and lay some tracks down. I am looking forward to that, but it has to be right.

My first introduction has to be something that I am proud of.

I also got asked to write a song and do a track probably a duet with Lianne la Havas...I am excited about that. Not sure what will come of it, if anything will, but I am jumping on all opportunities.

I got so much work to do, but I am excited. I also am excited about the fact that I sing and people fall over. I mean I am getting so much attention for my voice...God is so good. But it is such a big powerful instrument, that it needs so much work.

After my lesson yesterday I learned that I need to keep working hard. My technique has been slacking and I don't want that to happen. So back to weekly lessons with my 2 main teachers!!!! :-)

I think I am still going to go away, but I am getting so much work done that it maybe for a few weeks instead of the whole summer. That is yet to be seen.

Also I spent time with some of my BFA family, and we ate outside, and just hung out like old times. The only ting missing was that I thought of all the times we did that with...but it was still a great time.

Things are going so good it is exciting and scary. I love it. Well I am here at school, and I think the best thing for me to do right now is get more work done, take a nap, teach this voice lesson, and then go home.

Order my steps Jesus!!!

J-Bo

P.S. So annoying when someone steals from you...but it is part of life. Considering all the craziness going on in the world, with all the hell going around I really shouldn't complain.

Business Valuations

I had a talk with some investors and they all turned me down.

WHY!?!?!?!?!?

In the end my pitch could've use more work, and my valuation was way off. I made the company too rich. I know better than that...I always get on other people for offering me something that is crazy like that.

I have to go back, and revamp and come back bigger and better for more.

It was scary and it is a learning experience. Never before have I had everyone turn me down and do it kind of coldly. I just have to brush it off, and keep it moving.

Gotta revamp. Also got auditions coming up...gotta get my voice lessons in.

So much to do...one day at a time Jesus.

Ttyl.

J-Bo

Why Does The Church Treat Gay People So Differently?

So I was up at 3am this morning talking via Skype and then oovoo. I was doing conference calls with some of the kids that I mentor. What motivates this post is that these kids are hurting, broken, and honestly one-sided.

The funny thing is that they are all church kids.

Not all of them are gay. Some are just really different...they don't fit the stereotypes that their parents and church would hold for them and are treated very unfairly.

I am focusing on the gay issue cause it seems when it comes to everything church folk are quick to attack gays. Not all of them of course. Just the ones who are religious and believe that if you don't do things that they feel is right than you are all the way wrong.

So honestly a big part of it is that the church has this principality that has been ingrained over the years. It is changing, and it is evident on the number of people leaving church in droves.

To the church being gay is the very worst thing you can do and be. The church is taught to be nonjudgmental, but we are the most judgemental, most critical, most hateful, and most condescending.

I am going to use Van as an example cause his words and story give me the most pause. How can you raise someone, love them, cherish them, pour into them, and pray for them...yet you find out they are gay and you turn them away. You cast them out. Now this has never happened...Van is so paranoid that his family would find out and do something that I believe that is also a part in our end.

I mean I was getting very close to his family and friends...not because I pushed to be, but because deep down he was letting me be. He was bringing me in cause of who I am to him.

I never worried about anything like that. Thank God for the family that I have...I have it easy. :-)

I mean there are so many people that have so much going against them who aren't even gay. There are people strung out on drugs, alcohol, and more. Why the church so quick to attack gay people?!?!? It's the mentality. The fruits that have been born of this backward teaching has produced nothing but negativity.

Also I got a phone call from some of my musician friends last week. They work with a lot of artist in the gospel and CCM industry. They have told me that 80% of the music that people love, worship and praise to come from gay writers, producers, and/or artist. So gay people have been part of God's work for years!!!!!

I know the names and the songs, but some people maybe vindictive and try to do them harm and cause a war. So I am not going to name any of them, but this is real people. My friends are on tour with these people...work with these people. WHY CAN'T PEOPLE SEE IT?!?!?!?!!?

Cause they don't want to. People like to live and put God into a box...so anything outside of that gets no attention and dismissed. Look up the reticular activating system (RAS) -- http://reticularactivatingsystem.org/. It will give you some more information and science behind what I am talking about.

Now some people cannot get past the scriptures, and they shouldn't. But we also have to acknowledge the bible, and where and what is going on. We are at a place now where we don't have all the answers and can go forward and find them. We don't have to accept someone elses' interpretation...we are all at the place where we can do our own thinking.

A good amount of people know that the KJV of the bible is actually a translation of a translation and was put together not for religious reasons, but for political ones. But yet people default to it, because it is comfortable and what they know.

No one will accept surgical, scientific, medical, academic, and more practices from those times because we learn, grow, and know better, but when it comes to the bible we have this innate fear that we cannot grow and learn. We have to accept whatever limits we place on ourselves.

My purpose in life is to get people to take off the limits and live as God has intended us to live...free.

Now some scriptures for you guys:

Leviticus 20:13 "If a man has sex with a man as he does with a woman, both of them have done something that is abhorrent. They must be put to death; they are responsible for their own deaths." Message Bible

This is one of the go to scriptures that people go to. Now this is why knowing shit and not having real knowledge and wisdom can do some real harm. But that is the abomination scripture.

Leviticus 20:10 "“If a man commits adultery with another man’s wife—the wife, say, of his neighbor—both the man and the woman, the adulterer and adulteress, must be put to death."

Leviticus 20:18 “If a man sleeps with a woman during her period and has sex with her, he has uncovered her ‘fountain’ and she has revealed her ‘fountain’—both of them must be cut off from their people.

There is so much more that I can include in not only that chapter, but other ones as well. The church will all gang up on LGBT and leave alone the others. Why?? Cause they don't have the right spirit. Now some will say that when Jesus came we were free from the old law, and Leviticus was book for the holy men of the time. It was for the "priest" of the day...not so much the lay person.

People will of course jump to Romans 1:18-32. Now if you really read the story and not just one or two lines you will see that these are men and women who knew God and turned away from him. That God turned them from their natural desires.

Someone like me who was born and have always been attracted to men and women feels nothing wrong. I have always been sexually drawn to both...more men than women. Van has always been attracted to men.

He has always said that if he can be who he is and have his family in his life than he is set...but he is one the few who ties his wagon on who God is to what his family say God is. Makes sense...our boxes and limitations get handed down to us from generation to generation.

At least his brother and sister are more spiritually aware...they don't seem as religious and dogmatic. They seem more in tune and willing to flow...of course for them it is easy being straight. they don't have the same stigma and psychological stuff going on.

Well this post turned out longer than I wanted. I just wanted to air out some stuff and Van came into it. I do miss him, but it is just me. I never thought I'd be in this position. Missing someone who doesn't thing twice about me...God work it out!!!

J-Bo