So he won...and I can go to bed in peace.
Goodnight y;all.
Hope you guys are as happy as I am!!!!
J-Bo
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
Does the clock reset or does it just unpause??
I was talking to some friends of mine and we were talking about relationship and love, and partnerships.
It was an interesting conversation, and it was in that conversation that I learned something very interesting. When you break up with someone and get back together you don't restart as if nothing has happened...you guys just press play on the relationship.
I mean that means you can be with someone for 3 years not see them for 10 years, and then if you guys get back together it is like you guys pick up where you left off.
I know I shouldn't be surprised, but it is astonishing...very astonishing. I am so shocked by this...not sure why, but it is something I never thought about and now that it comes to my attention it does make sense.
I guess this works better if you were in a good relationship and split amicably.
That is what crossed my mind...now back to work.
Tomorrow is Holy Convocation for COGIC...I think I may watch some of the sermons and see what is going on. Not sure why, but it could be interesting.
J-Bo
It was an interesting conversation, and it was in that conversation that I learned something very interesting. When you break up with someone and get back together you don't restart as if nothing has happened...you guys just press play on the relationship.
I mean that means you can be with someone for 3 years not see them for 10 years, and then if you guys get back together it is like you guys pick up where you left off.
I know I shouldn't be surprised, but it is astonishing...very astonishing. I am so shocked by this...not sure why, but it is something I never thought about and now that it comes to my attention it does make sense.
I guess this works better if you were in a good relationship and split amicably.
That is what crossed my mind...now back to work.
Tomorrow is Holy Convocation for COGIC...I think I may watch some of the sermons and see what is going on. Not sure why, but it could be interesting.
J-Bo
Does Mediation Have a Place In A Christian Home??
Before I begin I want to say that I am so proud that today my nephew and youngest brother voted for the first time today. I am very proud of them...it's the little things that mean the most. :-)
I do believe that mediation should be part of any and all those who call themselves Christians. Below you will find some verses in the bible that talks about meditation.
11 total.
I have all sorts of proof and data that shows that Christians used mediation on the regular in the past, but it of course fell out of practice as the years went on.
It didn't help that all the mediation has gotten a bad rap, and people forgot that it was a practice we all used to do and not just those of eastern based religions.
So now mediation has this bad rap for being satanic, and evil, when it really isn't. I mean it is as clear as day, but then again from my dealings with Van it is easy to see that all because something is in the bible, it means very little.
No matter the proof and evidence and benefits ppl are going to be stuck because they are. That is what happens when followers are asked questions.
Meditation is not really focusing on things, and it is not prayer even though these do play a part. Some people think meditation is also contemplation and concentration, which it is not. Mediation is actually the process of quieting your mind and allowing yourself to get to a place of total quiet or pure consciousness.
In old Christian traditions this is the process of quieting everything else out so that we can get to that place of God speaking not into our minds, but into our hearts and spirits. It seems a bit wacky but it isn't. :-)
So many people are used to trying to hear God as a thought or a voice without realizing that it is usually our own thoughts and fears and desires speaking to us. Not to say that when we hear a voice it isn't God, but just that we have to pay attention, and figure out what is going.
I mean for example I asked God about these talks, and I heard it clear as day to do it, but it wasn't until I was in that quiet place that I realized that I have to take my time, and prepare myself cause this is going to be one hell of a fight. So I am on the right path, but I just have to have patience and not rush into things.
For example if I ask God a question on whether to go left or right, my brain is processing all sorts of information to make that answer for me. This is where science and spirituality meet and can make us better people and better Christians.
Anyway back on topic.
So I have started a daily meditation practice on God and who he is and just getting to that quiet still place. Of course that in conjunction with my daily prayer habit, and I feel so centered and at peace.
Scientific studies show that when you go into that space, and I guess the best way to describe it is the space between your thoughts, many wonderful things happen to you. Blood pressure goes down; heart rate goes down; immune system gets stumulated; hormones such as growth and also sex hormones increase; vision and hearing gets better; and in long term studies even wrinkles have been shown to go away.
So this is not a fad, but something that has been a tradition for most of us over the years, but it is a lost art.
I am happy to say that it is making a comeback. Of course most people don't know what it is and have all these negative associations about it...sad cause they are missing out on something God obviously wants us to do.
So you don't have to meditate if you don't want to, but I believe you are missing out on some great things if you don't. Just like praying is super beneficial.
For you science heads out there rest assured that mediation has been studied by medical and scientific professionals for over 30 years. The results have been documented, and if anyone wants to dig deeper and find them than you can. But believe me you will be astonished at what you find, and hopefully it will widen and shift your paradigms.
Just to give you guys a taste meditation is when
There are a number of bible verses that speak on meditation or the need to meditate. Here are some of the ones that I could find...these are all NKJV verses:
J-Bo
I do believe that mediation should be part of any and all those who call themselves Christians. Below you will find some verses in the bible that talks about meditation.
11 total.
I have all sorts of proof and data that shows that Christians used mediation on the regular in the past, but it of course fell out of practice as the years went on.
It didn't help that all the mediation has gotten a bad rap, and people forgot that it was a practice we all used to do and not just those of eastern based religions.
So now mediation has this bad rap for being satanic, and evil, when it really isn't. I mean it is as clear as day, but then again from my dealings with Van it is easy to see that all because something is in the bible, it means very little.
No matter the proof and evidence and benefits ppl are going to be stuck because they are. That is what happens when followers are asked questions.
Meditation is not really focusing on things, and it is not prayer even though these do play a part. Some people think meditation is also contemplation and concentration, which it is not. Mediation is actually the process of quieting your mind and allowing yourself to get to a place of total quiet or pure consciousness.
In old Christian traditions this is the process of quieting everything else out so that we can get to that place of God speaking not into our minds, but into our hearts and spirits. It seems a bit wacky but it isn't. :-)
So many people are used to trying to hear God as a thought or a voice without realizing that it is usually our own thoughts and fears and desires speaking to us. Not to say that when we hear a voice it isn't God, but just that we have to pay attention, and figure out what is going.
I mean for example I asked God about these talks, and I heard it clear as day to do it, but it wasn't until I was in that quiet place that I realized that I have to take my time, and prepare myself cause this is going to be one hell of a fight. So I am on the right path, but I just have to have patience and not rush into things.
For example if I ask God a question on whether to go left or right, my brain is processing all sorts of information to make that answer for me. This is where science and spirituality meet and can make us better people and better Christians.
Anyway back on topic.
So I have started a daily meditation practice on God and who he is and just getting to that quiet still place. Of course that in conjunction with my daily prayer habit, and I feel so centered and at peace.
Scientific studies show that when you go into that space, and I guess the best way to describe it is the space between your thoughts, many wonderful things happen to you. Blood pressure goes down; heart rate goes down; immune system gets stumulated; hormones such as growth and also sex hormones increase; vision and hearing gets better; and in long term studies even wrinkles have been shown to go away.
So this is not a fad, but something that has been a tradition for most of us over the years, but it is a lost art.
I am happy to say that it is making a comeback. Of course most people don't know what it is and have all these negative associations about it...sad cause they are missing out on something God obviously wants us to do.
So you don't have to meditate if you don't want to, but I believe you are missing out on some great things if you don't. Just like praying is super beneficial.
For you science heads out there rest assured that mediation has been studied by medical and scientific professionals for over 30 years. The results have been documented, and if anyone wants to dig deeper and find them than you can. But believe me you will be astonished at what you find, and hopefully it will widen and shift your paradigms.
Just to give you guys a taste meditation is when
There are a number of bible verses that speak on meditation or the need to meditate. Here are some of the ones that I could find...these are all NKJV verses:
- Joshua 1:8 This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate in it day and night, that you may observe to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success.
- Psalms 19:14 Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart, Be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord, my strength and my Redeemer.
- Pslams 1:2 But his delight is in the law of the Lord, And in His law he meditates day and night.
- Psalm 119:15 I will meditate on Your precepts, And contemplate Your ways.
- Phillipians 4:8 Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things.
- Psalm 104:34 May my meditation be sweet to Him; I will be glad in the Lord.
- Psalm 119:97 Oh, how I love Your law! It is my meditation all the day.
- Psalm 49:3 My mouth shall speak wisdom, And the meditation of my heart shall give understanding.
- Proverbs 4:20-22 My son, give attention to my words; Incline your ear to my sayings. Do not let them depart from your eyes; Keep them in the midst of your heart; For they are life to those who find them, And health to all their flesh.
- Matthew 6:6 But you, when you pray, go into your room, and when you have shut your door, pray to your Father who is in the secret place; and your Father who sees in secret will reward you openly.
- Isaiah 26:3 You will keep him in perfect peace, Whose mind is stayed on You, Because he trusts in You.
J-Bo
GO VOTE!!!!!
Please go out and vote...I did and I am counting on Obama 2012 to pull through again.
Whoever it is that you want to win please go and make your voice heard.
If you don't then you cannot complain about anything, cause you forfeit that right. Let's make history and bring back the sunshine.
J-Bo
Whoever it is that you want to win please go and make your voice heard.
If you don't then you cannot complain about anything, cause you forfeit that right. Let's make history and bring back the sunshine.
J-Bo
Horny; My Friend; Pimples...and did I say HORNY!!!!!
So I wake up with a raging hard on, and no one to take care of it. :-(
I swear I was sweating like a pig, but part of that is that my room has no circulation, and the heat was on blast last night.
I am so horny that I had a hot ass sex dream, and someone that resembles Van was in it. I am not sure if it was really him, but he felt like he did. Smh...that boy is all in and through me.
So anyway as you all know Van had another fucking episode and did what he does best. I am not even mad or sad anymore...to tell the truth I am more annoyed and shocked.
WTF?!?!
So here I am horny for this bitch ass man, and he is running around thinking it is wrong to be gay. I mean no self respecting man who has common sense would look at the facts and see that...which tells me he isn't.
So sad.
More than that, he is my friend. One of my very best friends, and even though he hates to admit it I am his best friend. I am closer to him than anyone else in his life. So I know he must feel really this is necessary, but he is wrong.
We are coming into a new enlightenment stage in our lives. We are coming to a new place where we are all growing, sharing, and contributing more.
I seem radical and progressive now, but soon I will be considered old fashioned, but no one will take me as progressive anymore. I mean soon what I know and have been preaching others will too, and we will see a surge and power in the church like never before. :-)
But nothing I can do about that...I have to do great things cause I won't settle for less.
Today is a new day...I am up now so I might as well head out to go vote, and then make a difference in other ways.
Gotta love my friends, cause they all see Van as making a huge mistake. I will say that when this all comes out I will be the first to tell his dumb ass I told you so, and slap him. :-)
Now to do something while I wait for the car.
Oh yea I have found 4 new pimples on my body. I got that from Van. Gotta go sweat them out and eat better. This is not cool...
Why did it have to be acne??
J-Bo
P.S. It must be love cause even with him being as narrow minded and limited as he is, and also having an STI I still want him. God what is going on?? Oh well...God work on his heart, but send me someone who appreciates the blessings you bestow and someone man enough to stand up and fight. Now I am speaking out of anger, cause that is him...he has shown those qualities...he just isn't used to it all the time.
I swear I was sweating like a pig, but part of that is that my room has no circulation, and the heat was on blast last night.
I am so horny that I had a hot ass sex dream, and someone that resembles Van was in it. I am not sure if it was really him, but he felt like he did. Smh...that boy is all in and through me.
So anyway as you all know Van had another fucking episode and did what he does best. I am not even mad or sad anymore...to tell the truth I am more annoyed and shocked.
WTF?!?!
So here I am horny for this bitch ass man, and he is running around thinking it is wrong to be gay. I mean no self respecting man who has common sense would look at the facts and see that...which tells me he isn't.
So sad.
More than that, he is my friend. One of my very best friends, and even though he hates to admit it I am his best friend. I am closer to him than anyone else in his life. So I know he must feel really this is necessary, but he is wrong.
We are coming into a new enlightenment stage in our lives. We are coming to a new place where we are all growing, sharing, and contributing more.
I seem radical and progressive now, but soon I will be considered old fashioned, but no one will take me as progressive anymore. I mean soon what I know and have been preaching others will too, and we will see a surge and power in the church like never before. :-)
But nothing I can do about that...I have to do great things cause I won't settle for less.
Today is a new day...I am up now so I might as well head out to go vote, and then make a difference in other ways.
Gotta love my friends, cause they all see Van as making a huge mistake. I will say that when this all comes out I will be the first to tell his dumb ass I told you so, and slap him. :-)
Now to do something while I wait for the car.
Oh yea I have found 4 new pimples on my body. I got that from Van. Gotta go sweat them out and eat better. This is not cool...
Why did it have to be acne??
J-Bo
P.S. It must be love cause even with him being as narrow minded and limited as he is, and also having an STI I still want him. God what is going on?? Oh well...God work on his heart, but send me someone who appreciates the blessings you bestow and someone man enough to stand up and fight. Now I am speaking out of anger, cause that is him...he has shown those qualities...he just isn't used to it all the time.
Monday, November 5, 2012
FEELING GOOD!!!!!!!!! Health and Wellness!!!!!!
Just called my doctor's PA and she said I am STI free, and everything on my blood work is awesome.
I was worried because Van said he has an STI and of course I took blame and responsibility for it.
Then I just called again to make sure, and I asked my actual primary care physician and he said I was negative for everything and that I am in great health.
He did say that because of my weight I am at risk for somethings, but besides that I am perfectly good. Also my sugar is a little high and not nowhere near diabetes, but he said I need to keep an eye out and start working on being proactive.
So my number one goal is to lose the weight, and take care of the outside as much as I do the inside. Gotta be the best man for me, the world, my future husband, and of course gotta respect the temple that God resides in.
So when I go in for my check up in December I am going to get it checked again, and after that I will go back to my 6-month check ups. So every January/December and every June/July.
MY GOD IS A GOOD GOD!!!!!!
Feel like going for a run right now actually...
Van was told by a friend since he cut all ties of communication with me, but that is all well. He at least knows and is going to figure out what happened. I believe he didn't cheat on me...I still trust him with my life. But he has to figure out what happened.
Now off to have some fun, and get ready to vote and make my voice heard tomorrow.
J-Bo
I was worried because Van said he has an STI and of course I took blame and responsibility for it.
Then I just called again to make sure, and I asked my actual primary care physician and he said I was negative for everything and that I am in great health.
He did say that because of my weight I am at risk for somethings, but besides that I am perfectly good. Also my sugar is a little high and not nowhere near diabetes, but he said I need to keep an eye out and start working on being proactive.
So my number one goal is to lose the weight, and take care of the outside as much as I do the inside. Gotta be the best man for me, the world, my future husband, and of course gotta respect the temple that God resides in.
So when I go in for my check up in December I am going to get it checked again, and after that I will go back to my 6-month check ups. So every January/December and every June/July.
MY GOD IS A GOOD GOD!!!!!!
Feel like going for a run right now actually...
Van was told by a friend since he cut all ties of communication with me, but that is all well. He at least knows and is going to figure out what happened. I believe he didn't cheat on me...I still trust him with my life. But he has to figure out what happened.
Now off to have some fun, and get ready to vote and make my voice heard tomorrow.
J-Bo
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Hurrican Sandy, Health Concerns, and Lost Friendships
So this past week has been very interesting...and not all of it has been good, but I know that is part of life.
First the east coast got hit hard by Sandi, and so many people got affected, but thank God that we were safe. As far as I know all of my family is safe and ok, just some better off than others, but nothing to even concern ourselves about.
The health concerns are nothing that big, and they are yet to be discovered. Just gotta take better care of myself which I am doing...just have to be more active in it, but things are looking up. Just waiting for my blood results to come in, and then I can see where I am starting from.
Also Van went to a church service, avoided my phone calls, and then hit me up on FB telling me that we can't even be friends!!! Smh...
To be honest I don't know how to feel...I mean he does this all the time. But it still hurt...and it hurt a lot.
But I am in a better place than I was. I mean I was so heartbroken that I went from feeling really healthy and strong to waking up with a really bad and horrible head cold. I mean it was bad enough to knock me on my ass.
Church was good, and a lift to my spirits.
I just don't get it how we aren't doing anything, and not even planning on doing anything. I mean I was happy with being friends...not really, but I was going to accept it. I was even going to start dating again so that it would be more easy to see that we are just friends.
With everything that happened this week this is the biggest thing. But it is what it is I guess.
He also went ahead and unfriended me on FB, so that was like wow. I thought he might do it, but never thought he would. So I blocked him...
I know it was like you do this so I do that, but still. I did it. I hate that I did it, cause it is against my character, and I know Jesus is not a man who acted like that. But I am tired of being the better man and holding myself to higher standards.
In any case he has totally cut me from his life, and though it hurts I understand. This has nothing to do with me, and everything to do with him, and what is going on in his head and in his heart. I am in the clear so it makes no sense for me to hold onto guilt. I don't deserve it, and I am in the right.
I know what some might be thinking...I am not going to hide from him and I am not going to throw him away. If he needs me for anything or needs to get incontact with me, there are many ways he can do it. We have many mutual friends, more than I ever realized.
I know this isn't the way things should be, but it is out of my hands. If he wants to get incontact with me, then he can. I know his bday is coming up, so I already got some of my friends to tell him, and wish him the best.
Kinda feels good knowing that I did everything I could even to the point of settling to be just friends, but in the end not me. Always called him crazy. :-)
So now I am off to bed, cause tomorrow is a brand new day.
J-Bo
P.S. I am not officially a member of my church. Feels like I have always been a member cause I have always considered myself a member. But still I guess now it is what it is...feeling good.
First the east coast got hit hard by Sandi, and so many people got affected, but thank God that we were safe. As far as I know all of my family is safe and ok, just some better off than others, but nothing to even concern ourselves about.
The health concerns are nothing that big, and they are yet to be discovered. Just gotta take better care of myself which I am doing...just have to be more active in it, but things are looking up. Just waiting for my blood results to come in, and then I can see where I am starting from.
Also Van went to a church service, avoided my phone calls, and then hit me up on FB telling me that we can't even be friends!!! Smh...
To be honest I don't know how to feel...I mean he does this all the time. But it still hurt...and it hurt a lot.
But I am in a better place than I was. I mean I was so heartbroken that I went from feeling really healthy and strong to waking up with a really bad and horrible head cold. I mean it was bad enough to knock me on my ass.
Church was good, and a lift to my spirits.
I just don't get it how we aren't doing anything, and not even planning on doing anything. I mean I was happy with being friends...not really, but I was going to accept it. I was even going to start dating again so that it would be more easy to see that we are just friends.
With everything that happened this week this is the biggest thing. But it is what it is I guess.
He also went ahead and unfriended me on FB, so that was like wow. I thought he might do it, but never thought he would. So I blocked him...
I know it was like you do this so I do that, but still. I did it. I hate that I did it, cause it is against my character, and I know Jesus is not a man who acted like that. But I am tired of being the better man and holding myself to higher standards.
In any case he has totally cut me from his life, and though it hurts I understand. This has nothing to do with me, and everything to do with him, and what is going on in his head and in his heart. I am in the clear so it makes no sense for me to hold onto guilt. I don't deserve it, and I am in the right.
I know what some might be thinking...I am not going to hide from him and I am not going to throw him away. If he needs me for anything or needs to get incontact with me, there are many ways he can do it. We have many mutual friends, more than I ever realized.
I know this isn't the way things should be, but it is out of my hands. If he wants to get incontact with me, then he can. I know his bday is coming up, so I already got some of my friends to tell him, and wish him the best.
Kinda feels good knowing that I did everything I could even to the point of settling to be just friends, but in the end not me. Always called him crazy. :-)
So now I am off to bed, cause tomorrow is a brand new day.
J-Bo
P.S. I am not officially a member of my church. Feels like I have always been a member cause I have always considered myself a member. But still I guess now it is what it is...feeling good.
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