House Guest...and a question.

So A & D came by today. They got a ride with my mom, and they are spending the next few nights up here with us.

I am really happy to have these guys out here. It makes me happy. It is also cool to see that they are still as annoying and crazy as ever. They both do really compliment each other. Smh...just seeing them act the fool makes me happy.

I told Aaron to behave himself and keep his hands to himself, but I wouldn't if my wo/man was here.

Too much these two. :-)

Now here is my question: Can I still consider myself bisexual if I enjoy and want sex with men more than I do with women? And when I am with women I want men, but when I am with men I don't really want to be with women...I miss them, but it isn't a real big deal.

I just want to know. I love men and I know it is how God would have me be, but I love women too. But not in the same way. Why am I still having these conflicting thoughts.

I have realized that it would be easier if I were straight to just fit in, and not be different. To just fit in with family, friends, and the like. But it doesn't matter cause I need to love who I am.

Well I am leaving the guys to their stuff...I am ready for bed. Night y'all!!

J-Bo

P.S. I am a bisexual man who loves men more than women. I think that means I am actually a gay man, who can have sex with women if they are interesting enough. I guess that makes me an opportunist. Funny cause when I was younger I always said men were just for sex, and women were for love and relationships. Funny how my descriptions have changed.

P.P.S. There is a girl that likes me, and I am trying hard to not give mixed signals, but I am in the mood for sex and just to feel wanted and appreciated. There is also a guy who works at NY Presbyterian Hospital...he is one of the youngest top surgeons in the country. He is so much better, but I am missing something with him. But I would love to be in his presence...I am learning so much about medicine and science from him and his friends. And he is HOT!!!!!! Keeping him under wraps, because I don't see a future with him, but I can have fun. ;-)

God at work in the world!!!

Just wanted to share this with you guys.

Just so great to see God working in the world...it is truly beautiful.

J-Bo

Crazy Ass Family

So now it seems people are disappointed with me that I am not taking sides in anything.

One cousin calls me trying to get the contact information for another cousin to get her into trouble. Why?? Because someone apparently called ACS, on the other one. I swear it is too much!! TOO MUCH!!

I cannot be bothered with the kid shit. I have too much riding on what I am doing, and my own dreams and goals to be worried about grown folks out for blood against each other.

My main priority now as it has been before is the kids. I need to make sure my little cousins are as protected as possible, cause they have nothing to do with this drama.

I know what it is that I have to do. I know what it is that is required of me.

If I have to I will cut them all out of my life. I love them, but I love me more.

J-Bo

P.S. Look out for some positive and great news. Things are happening PPL!!!!!! :-D

BFA REUNIONI!!!!

So today was an interesting day. I messed up in one way, but that was my fault and I own that.

So I got to see most of the BFA clique today and we played music and we sang liked the old times.

We riffed, harmonized, and just laughed. We also listened to other singers and went in for no reason. It was really good...I miss times like that...it actually wore me out.

Then the Director (if you were part of the group you would know who that is) is now MARRIED!!!!!

She talked to all of us, and it was so nice. I cannot believe she got married, and we all wish the best for the Director.

So that was on that front. The bad thing that happened was that I had my voice student today. It was good, and I had some people in the room with me. Everything turned out ok, but her energy and her demenor just sucks to be honest.

So I walk her down stairs and she sends me a text saying she is upset that we did the same exercises today that we did last time and she feels she isn't learning anything. WTF?!?!?!?!?!

I was shocked and had to share that with everyone of the BFAs and voice majors in the area. Who in their right mind takes a voice lesson and expects to be a totally different singer when they do nothing that you worked with them on at home.

So I had to tell her that there are going to be exercises that she is going to be doing for her whole life over and over again, because the exercises are the foundation of what singers do, and they help with getting the technique.

She also said she wasn't happy that other people were in the room. I said why didn't you say that to me. I woulda asked them to leave. She was stuck. I swear I never knew how great it is to work with actual singers. CRAZY!!!! Then this girl sends me 2 songs that she wants to work on, and I take the time to learn them by ear (I have it down perfectly too...with only 30 mins on it...my ear is getting way ahead).

She doesn't even know the songs...I kinda hope she doesn't come back so I can focus on real singers, and those who know that singing is a life long pursuit. Not 2 lessons and you are a pro. Where did she even get that shit from. Smh.

But the highlight was singing and playing with the BFA family, and talking to the director. Then I spoke to my main girl and told her I wanna get a tattoo and she said she is down cause she wants to get some she has redone and modified. Now I just have to decide what the hell to get...I got time.

Night for now people...I am TIRED!!!!

God bless and much love.

J-Bo

Alicia Keys' Rendition of the National Anthem

I liked it to be honest. I know some people from on facebook and twitter were upset over it, but I liked it.

She played to her strengths and made the song her own. It was unique. I have heard people from all musical genres do the national anthem, and that was pretty good. I mean she couldn't do it like Whitney, Jennifer Hudson, or anyone else.

She did it like she would do it...and it was Great!!

It was soulful, calm, and poised. People are too much. It's like having a classical singer go up there and you made she didn't do it all pop ballad like. Well that is not the kind of singer she is, so why would she do it that way.

Go ahead Alicia...keep doing you.

J-Bo

Super Bowl...BEYONCE!!!!

Let me start by saying that the Super Bowl this year is a little disappointing.

San Francisco should be playing better, but the game isn't over yet. You never know the way these things work out. I still have faith for them, but you never know. It would be great if the underdog wins!!!

BEYONCE FUCKING ROCKED!!!!!

That girl is BAD!!!!!

I mean she was so damn good...I am sorry but there is a reason why Beyonce is on top the way she is. She is just too talented and too good. Everyone in my house was just watching...

She is someone to look out for...she is a beast!!

Now back to the game, and then I have to head into the city and see about a voice class and a voice lesson. Also I have to see about giving a voice lesson tomorrow.

Keep me in your prayers and thoughts.

J-Bo

Brain Surgery & Family Drama

My grandmother is going into the hospital to get brain surgery on Tuesday to get a tumor removed.

I am so not looking forward to this. I am going to be there so BK here I come.

On the other side of things to add stress and headache to the equation, my cousin who was in jail for years is causing problems all over again. Apparently he has problems with everyone and everything, but he stays around. That makes no sense to me at all.

I know he is going through some serious mental, physical, and emotional issues. And normally I am very good at dealing with things like this, but for some reason I am not thinking all too clearly.

I cannot make excuses for him when he is poisoning my little cousins. He actually wished my grandmother...HIS GRANDMOTHER!!! That she would die during her surgery. WHO THE FUCK SAYS SHIT LIKE THAT?!?!?!?!

DISGUSTING!!!!!!!

I am so upset and disappointed in him. I mean having arguments and disagreements are normal and to be expected. But what he did was out of line. Totally unforgivable.

I don't know what to do. It is out of my hands, and someone like that is a danger to himself and others. He has to go, and maybe it is true...he needs to be in jail again for good, or just leave and never come back. His kids would miss him, but he can spread his hate and malice somewhere else.

I was going to be in BK tomorrow, but I decided to save that trip for Tuesday when my grandmother will be in the hospital getting the surgery.

I wanna call Van and talk to him about all of this. He would tell me the truth about all the medical stuff and lemme know what she and the family is in store for. Oh well...time to get to bed. Gotta lot of driving to do tomorrow.

God is doing so much and then this happens. I swear it never stops getting interesting.

J-Bo